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A Young Child's Thoughts

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When you're a child nothing seems to hurt. You think the worst thing that can happen to you is misplacing your favorite toy. But welcome to the real world. My childhood was far from flowers, happiness, dreams and ponies. Try crying yourself to sleep. But being wakened by yelling. having to hear your parents scream so loud at each other the windows rattle. Finally silence...did they kill each other? No I'm not that lucky. Waking up the next morning and going thru the same thing again...Wake up, eat, yell, be yelled at, hear yelling, cry, sleep, repeat. Welcome to my world...The real world..


Is there any hope for us? I am scared to find out the answer. My mind is telling me no but my heart still wants to say yes. I still love you that never changed. But the way I show my love has changed. With you there and me here I think your love for me has changed as well. You not only have two daughters to love but now there are four. I don't think you are capable of loving two new children. You could barely love us. I wish you the best of luck with your two new children. Try not to make the same mistakes you made with us. You can see where that got you. I am all alone. He has you. She has him. You left me here. Left to find my own way. Left to become something you never even wanted in the first place. I was never good enough for you was I? I could tell in your eyes that all you want is them. They're new we're old. They're like the new clean and stainless pair of shoes. We're like the worn out dirty pair that gets thrown away. On to the next best thing you go. Gone in the blink of an eye. I have to block offthoughts of you so I don't lose my head. When i close my eyes all I see is wht used to be. One happy family, Mother, Father, two little girls. Life seemed so goo, happy, perfect. But nothing good can last forever. Thank you parents for showing me that at such a young age. I guess some just have to learn the hard way. I used to smile, laugh and love will all my heart. Now all that's left of my once big open heart is empty space with no meaning left. No love to give. No smile to fake. No tears to cry. A family torn apart. Broken way beyond repair is all that is left of my "perfect" childhood. I am shaken from the pain that's in my head. I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away the life I live, but I won't let you get the best of me anymore. I won't let your harsh words break me apart piece by piece. Not again not anmore, never agiain. Your screming i now muted in my mind. Your painful words I am imune to now. No more pain you can cause. The worst of the storm is over. We can only go up from here...I hope

 

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0 #2 busco mujeres 2014-05-17 06:15
This info is worth everyone's attention. When can I find out more?
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0 #1 SHARI FORD 2011-09-08 17:17
This is interesting...far too many kids live this way.
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